this whole past week has been very odd as far as eating goes.
thats probably why i havent updated, because of sheer guilt.
anyways. its been a rollercoaster (examweek).
but i've stayed at 136 (alelujah).
so thats good.
havent eaten yet today. then again its only 10 am.
more later. :)
"I feel bloated, huge, disgusting, ugly, a monstrous lumbering sow of a woman, a greedy revolting red-faced creature, and every bite, I feel myself swelling, I'm punished for breaking the first commandment, don't eat more than a small bird because it's unladylike and you'll get fat and no one will like you, but it's too late, I can feel the sharpness of my cheekbones sinking, swamped under spongy bulges of flesh, my thighs spreading like warm lard and sticking together, so it's much safer not to eat."
B: rice cake :40
L: rice cake + calcium = 60
intake = 100
coffee / tea fast until monday night.
